Better Luck Next Time


Hi.
I'm Megan.
I don't know what I'm doing.
Sometimes I make pretty pictures.
...yeah.

My brother killed himself
on the twenty-eighth Thursday of last year
and I missed four days of work
and my mom wanted to know ‘Why’.
My brother
he was always a fan of beauty
but what he did
was not beautiful at all.

And last week I got the news
that one of my good friends from high school
had overdosed
(again)
except this time
she’d gone too far
and now she was gone.
And I had a hard time falling asleep at night
and her mother
hugged me tight
and thanked me for coming to the service
but I did not
want to be there at all.
This is not
beautiful.

The girl down the street
would’ve turned 21 last year
and I can scarcely imagine
the wild times she would’ve
(should’ve)
had.
But she is buried six feet deep
after falling nearly 300
and she did not leave a note.
This is not
beautiful.

My freshman year of college
and my roommate was beautiful
and how I wanted to be just like her.
But she wore herself down
till she was
almost invisible
and if you blinked
you had to go and find her all over again.
So now her parents are no longer supporting her college tuition
but are paying her hospital bills
watching their daughter crumble.
This is not
beautiful.

So y’all can take your narcissistic
romanticizing
and glamorizing
of self harm and eating disorders and committing suicide
and shove them as far up your ass
as you possibly can.
Starvation is not beautiful.
Killing yourself is not beautiful.
Sadness
is not beautiful.
This note I am writing
is not beautiful.

But you
you are beautiful
and it’s about damn time you start believing it.

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comicshans:

have you guys seen pendleton ward’s sailor moon doodle/animation on twitter

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Not sure why it’s so dark in the back room….

Not sure why it’s so dark in the back room….

I spent half the day thinking tomorrow was my birthday and I only found out that today was the 26th because my coworkers came up to wish me a happy bday. Whoops.

ladragonaria:

Any salad can be a Caesar salad if you stab it enough

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shubbabang:

funny story my 5th grade elementary school teacher was the one who figured out i had crazy bad adhd

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i hope she’s doing well

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vapor-man:

foxfamilyfeatures:

cowbop beboy 

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Well, I finally sent in my application to transfer to USM and go back to school. Guess we’ll see how this goes.

I honestly don’t get the appeal of smoking pot. It just makes me dizzy and want to go to bed